an english dictionary - o

oscillation: repeating the same thing over and over because you don't know what else to do

Before about a week ago I hadn't heard of the play Long Day's Journey into Night.  I figured it was going to be some story about some people and how they were or weren't overcoming death or something.  But it turned out to be about something much worse.

Drugged mothers, greedy fathers, drunk brothers, diseased sons.   The whole thing was just life going down hill.

The situation of the family seemed so realistic.  A couple gets married with such high hopes, but after the neglecting husband and submissive wife don't communicate enough to solve their problems, a baby is born.  The problems get worse and worse until the things dive bomb with the news that their youngest son is dying.

The whole time I was watching I couldn't stop thinking: there's no hope now.  I've never felt more hopeless in my entire life. 

I couldn't stop thinking about my own issues and seeing myself in the same kind of problem.  Hopelessness seemed to seep into my soul and settle in the deepest parts of my being.  I left the theatre feeling like I was never going to get out.  I was always going to be the same person struggling with the same things feeling like my life was taking the same course that it always will.

But don't worry peeps.  Because after a few minutes, I remembered about Jesus.

London Temple